Its Alive!
10:49 a.m. Monday, December 16, 2002

... why am i back ...

Life is wasted on the living

Screw this
08:47 p.m. Tuesday, March 26, 2002

"Your struck off my best frens list, dun talk to me, i'm angry." Yup i screwed up big time. Maybe yo girls out there, we should exchange part of our brains. Complex.

Just some advice
09:57 p.m. Tuesday, March 19, 2002

Just some advice...probably u guys might not take it from my point of view...but if any of u have a girl/guy, which you really like, i think thou shalt leave thy relationship as friends, or u might end up saying something stupid...like 'I Love You'. Which as beautiful as it may seem, does not take effect very often when we are teens.

Don't suspect that it has anything to do with me, just thought of it during one of my thinking seesions when i don't wanna do work.

My hand is rotting.
09:48 p.m. Tuesday, March 19, 2002

My fingers are starting to rot from guitar playing. Don't know how i did it my i blasted one of my guitar strings when i plucked it too hard. Damn. Although it sounded like and electric for a while...

The Stupidest thing to say.
10:06 p.m. Monday, March 18, 2002

I Love You.

Improvement
08:04 p.m. Tuesday, March 12, 2002

Inactive for a few days. Catching up with my school work? I think? haha. Well think i improved just a little bit. At least my chem improved from an f9 to a B4. Should be quite ok lah...following in the footsteps of my "famous" senior, Zhang Ming. Heh. So probably won't be blogging that often, if i really wanna remain in Sec 4. Btw my guitar skills are improving too! yeah! And my bloody dog is shitting all over the house again. Damn. When its pissed with me, it just pisses outside my room, which usually is NOT very visible. Leading to a whole foot of doggy piss. I spank it and it bites my foot. Now i'm witnessing rebelion while being rebelious. Ironic (if you dont know what irony is, read the title, then the left column, u'll get the idea).

Now my dog is confused of its sex, today its a male tomorrow its a female. *HmHm*

OmG!
10:18 p.m. Friday, March 1, 2002

Great now i have 2 guitars...one 6 string and 1 12 string. hahaha. And they say things don't come in moderation. (BingXin). Talked to a girl i used to fear for 2 hours straight. Now i understand why she's always clinging onto me, Hehz.

Hmm
09:14 p.m. Tuesday, February 26, 2002

Because of the stress and problems i have been facing lately, i have decided to jog every morning before school at 6:30am. did it the first time today, it was fantastic, didnt know jogging in the dark was so refreshing. Gives me a reason to be shagged at night...so at least can get to sleep and not think too much...lol. HahAH jogging in the morning improves my timing too...i ran 8 rounds in like 12-13mins. Heh. Must make it a habit...

Little Ironies
10:09 p.m. Monday, February 25, 2002

Well well, today sorta noticed some stuff about life. Things are not always what they seem to be, everything seems to be changing...every single second. I've heard of people sniffing glue...hmmm...thats bad. but....but...

Bing xin sniffs his socks??? He tore this piece of thread from his socks today (btw, he sits beside me) and starts sniffing on it. Next thing he realizes, the thread gets sucked into his nostrials, and if your asking how, i'm still thinking. Then this paranoid idiot starts croaking and sniffing, stuffing his hand down his throat and try to take it out(let me emphasize...he sits next to me) So he starts blowing his nose non-stop, convinced that there is a piece of 5cm long thread sucked up into his lungs. Now Now...ThaT IsNt THAT HarD To beLieVe...IS IT???

Before tuition, i sat on this bench, drinking some milo, this girl walks up to me, looks at me like i'm some fucking rapist, turns, and runs back where she came from. Now...WhAT DiD I Do??!?!

Do I look like i know what you did last summer....

Time to study
10:27 p.m. Thursday, February 21, 2002

Alright, the competitions are over, we lost. Probably its a blessing in disguise, now i have much more time to study, which i better do, or its sec 3 for me...

My family is falling apart, and my sister is going crazy, i'll consider calling the cops if this carries on...My father is mad, and my mother is helpless...oh what a life i have.

Home Sweet Home my FOoT, now i know why my 2nd sister moved out.

Life Sux so bad...
09:56 p.m. Tuesday, February 19, 2002

Well well, i might be in sec 3 afterall. JWong came to speak to me today again, most probably i'm in deep shit already, and most slightly i'll be in sec 3 before this term ends. Then i'll be really fucked for life.

The Games have just started...
10:03 p.m. Friday, February 15, 2002

Finally today, we started to play basketball...winning Kranji Sec by 7 points. There's room for improvement though, but today was quite a good game compared to the other games we played.

We could have done it easier perhaps, if it wasnt for the bald bias referee who keeps going against us. the other team had about 5 fouls altogether, while we had 33 fouls altogether, including 4 players getting fouled out, and many ending the game with 4 fouls. Although the chances of us getting into the next round is more or less confirmed, we still have to win the next match, which is gonna be a tough fight.

The ball is round, anything can happen.

Happy Chinese New Year
01:01 a.m. Tuesday, February 12, 2002

Went to primary sch today, and met up with some of my old school mates. Quite fun, had some catching up to do. LoL.

The Reunion dinner was quite boring though, steamboat, besides the fact that i drank a hell lot of beer. HahA....still managed to last and stay awake though. Sian...still muz go visit here visit there...hai.

Its a fucking conspiracy
10:12 p.m. Friday, February 8, 2002

Fuck guess what...Mr Wong just collabirated with my father against me...together with the rest of my family. Now i feel like i'm in a fucking jail cell. Fine...i told lies, so? Now i'm condemned and sentenced to a life of...injustice. My father emails J Wong everyday to find out if i'm telling lies. So if u find me in Thailand changing sex one day, dun be supprised. I think i'll start with leaving home first.

Home sweet home...My Foot!

New page names
09:09 p.m. Wednesday, February 6, 2002

Heya any one who visits this page, leave a vote at the guestbook will ya? gonna change the title for the page, take a vote.

1. Co[N]DoM::Safety first::No Regrets
2.F[R]eeDoM::Love is a pathetic fallacy
3.DoM[|]ciLe::House of pain

Paranoia
08:56 p.m. Wednesday, February 6, 2002

Look at the poem on the left, that's me. And i am seeing people who are not there, and wishing they would bloody fuck off.

Maybe i'm just looking at myself

Bing Xin and Weisheng probably succeeding in their Mork fantasy. Really brings back memories, you wont believe how many. Sometimes you cant forget no matter how hard you try, or how tough the circumstances. Are they real? Like what bing xin will say, "Nothing is real" But i dun think so. Not sure if the feeling is mutual. Doesnt look like it at the moment. Should you follow your heart? or your mind?

This time i've really gone too deep, at the wrong time, of the wrong year,

West Zone Champions?
10:03 p.m. Monday, February 4, 2002

Lost to river valley by 6 points. Our team played like super super shit. i wont say i played well either. The fucking referee was super bias against chinese high. Why?? Because we were the West Zone champions when we are C Div? He doesnt like us, honest, even my coach says so. Talk about standard drop...defending champs for west zone. Losing to an average team like river valley should not happen. Now we are in deep shit of probably picking jurong or swiss cottage in the second round. Coach keep asking me to shoot, but i fucking sprianed my hand in the first quarter! How to shoot? Then i played for the whole match, damn shagged.

This sucks, and so does the fuck face bald black screw up referee

A sign?
02:46 p.m. Sunday, February 3, 2002

Today wore 100% silk, mandarin collar black long sleeve shirt, with black pants black shoes and black shades to chruch. And got the new nick name, "Lady Killer", lol. The message of the pastor seemed to be a real one. First sentence he said of the day, "Do NOT be drunk on hard liquer, but instead with the holy spirit." Reminded me of the time i got drunk on whiskey. Hmm. Maybe its a sign. quite obvious i suppose. wonder wad other signs are in for me...

Enlarge my territories, that i may cause no pain.

A losing victory
08:50 p.m. Friday, February 1, 2002

The basketball match today with Yuhua sucks to the core, we played like shit, totally fuck up. All sleeping on the court(including me) Although we won, by 1 measly point, its a lost from my point of view.

The ball is round, anything can happen.

So far so good
10:59 p.m. Thursday, January 31, 2002

I'm making progress in my guitar, according to Yunfei. 2 days since i first started, its quite good that i can play part of some songs...i guess. Better improve fast, although i think my technique is not correct. haha. Had talentime today, think my class did very very well, although it is obvious that they are way behind the NPCC team, which of course have been training that same old dance for ages and ages for their NPCC competition. Great work to suhan and team !

Mission Impossible
09:08 p.m. Wednesday, January 30, 2002

Alright, i'm playing the guitar, on a 12 string, highest tension bloody gold metal strings which are killing my fingers. Did i mention i never played a guitar before? Learning on a 12 string is gonna be almost impossible. Firstly, why did that asshole at the shop think i am some pro, and give me his "super" string. Secondly, why can't i even press a simple chord without any distortion! (trust me its not easy, from a beginners point of view) I think if i thouch a six string now, i can play liao.

Damn the metal strings, although they look like jewelery.

Shag me baby!
10:22 p.m. Tuesday, January 29, 2002

Today got 4 tests, screw. Maths(fail), Social Studies(fail), English(fail), Chinese(lucky postponed). Totally exhausted. Nevermind, afternoon still got training. Now updating this blog is a painful task, my fingers are sore from the guitar playing.

Even sex isn't so tiring.

Gh3Ys
09:32 p.m. Monday, January 28, 2002

Alright guys, Chinese High is turning so gay. Sec 1s, mind you, are all turning fucking gay and idiotic. Lets state some examples:

I walk, from the canteen to the auditorium, and this bunch of sec 1 kids(i'll emphasize on it again) say out loud(and i mean loud) ,"Eh! You very shuai!", "Really ! Really very shuai." WAD THE FUCK IS GOING ON??!! I sense sarcasism when i hear it, and this does not sound like it, it sounds pure gay.

Later after the auditorium meeting, this other bunch of sec 1 idiots(let me emphasize on that again) sit AT the entrance, blocking the WHOLE congregation to exit. Buay ta han, so i scolded them, "Bloody idiots!, scram lah!" Of course they did lah, at quite an amazing speed.

I'm gonna kill one of them soon.

Music
10:00 p.m. Sunday, January 27, 2002

Used to hate music, since quitting piano. But after few days of exposure to intruments such as drums and guitars, the interest seems to be growing rapidly within me. Took out my 12 string guitar, goin to tune it and restring it at PS tomorrow. Picked up drums, seem to get it going pretty well. After my O lvls, i'm gonna pick up piano again, keeping my promise, to someone who is sort of a music genius. After 3-4 yrs of dorment musical life, this should be the sort of break through i really need.

My Favourite Hobby
09:40 p.m. Sunday, January 27, 2002

Guess all u want, my hobby is thinking. Soon i'll get white hair all over the place(hmm.)

Top Ten Thinking list:

1. Should i get a girlfriend?
2. What if it happens to be your friends girlfriend.
3.What if she likes you? (Tht's the main problem)
4.What if she doesn't like you?(Thts a secondary problem)
5. What if your friend finds out?
6. Am i very bad?
7. Maybe i should just find another one.
8. Is it 'legal' to get an older girlfriend.
9. Why can't i stop thinking and do some work.
10. Maybe she's thinking this...wait...maybe she's thinking that...WAIT! Maybe...

Now I know why i fail 3 out of 4 tests.

Got balls?
10:05 p.m. Saturday, January 26, 2002

Went to school at 6:30 in the morning...played Basketball. at 7:30 went for morning jog. 8:30, went to play basketball again...all the way until 12pm. Went for some Lit crap, then...guess what, i went to play ball again. All the way until 8pm. Boy i'm starting to think i'm going mad.

Suddenly today, my mum said something...wierd, "Don't keep thinking about...*AhEm*(*****), can find alot of others when u are in JC or University." Muz be Mr Foo's fault...^%$*. They are juz paranoid.

Pop goes the weasel!
09:40 p.m. Friday, January 25, 2002

Damn i'm in a freaky mood nowadays. Suddenly turning crazy? Losing control over my emotions, because of some stuff i've done? or someone has done... Practising for talentime the whole while these few days. Shagged. I cant sing well anyway, go on stage to be clown...lol. Bing Xin better pick your $1000 up quick, or someone else will, worse...it might juz fly away.

Im a rude little kid
11:18 p.m. Wednesday, January 23, 2002

Just quarreled with my sister. If u think this is the normal sister and brother quarrel, let me let you in on a fact, my sister is 39 yrs old. So we can cut the childish quarrels. Damn Im rude, but i don't give damn either. I treat my friends, teachers, people around me, better than i treat my family. I will have to admit Im a rude little kid

Reached home at 11pm. Had talentime rehersals, unbelievable, but i'm singing. Had alot of fun with the drums and electric guitars(gotta have one of those). Practise was quite ok (the singing part), except probably i'm paranoid that i'm not singing well, although im not singing as well as the way i used to...LoL.

Patience has its limits, and mine was destroyed 6 yrs ago.

One Step Closer to the Edge
10:18 p.m. Monday, January 21, 2002

Damn. schedules getting tighter and tighter, today got home at 10pm. WAd The #&%$! Damn. now i've got 9 more months of hell. Squeeze some more funny shit into my schedule and i might just get constipation. And i don't think lexatives will help. Screw the test tomorrow, screw the test the next day, and screw the test the next next day. Oh yeah, here comes the failing spree again. As usual, shit happens.

Some just shit and stink, while i sit and think.

Thou Shalt not Steal
10:12 p.m. Monday, January 21, 2002

Stealing is bad bad... whether its a person or a thing.

Who Moved my cheese ?
09:44 p.m. Sunday, January 20, 2002

Life is all about changes. Changes you do not expect to happen, and changes which happen the wrong way. Still we must accept and go along with these changes, because life goes on.

Today is sunday, and I did not go out with my usual church cliques, which are those in my grade, even though it was gladys birthday, i didn't feel like going, not fitting in perhaps, or taking myself out of the picture. Instead i ventured down to bishan J8 alone, to buy Tako Pachi for lunch. On my way down though, I met Bryan koh, Cai Ying and Elizabeth. Bryan asked me to join them, since I was alone. And I went with them to lunch. All of them are older than I (17-18 yrs old) but I felt that there was no communication barriers wadsoeva. The only thing is perhaps, i am going out with Cai Ying and Elizabeth for the first time, so i do not know them that well. Still we managed to talk and joke alot. I the end, i spent the whole day with them, shopping, eating, talking, reached home at about 8-9pm, which was rather unplanned. Had a great time with them, sure hope they had a great time with me though. And if I would have to choose between going out with my church class, and them, i would choose the latter, for many, many reasons.

Life without friends is a life no one wants to live.

Face Off
09:00 p.m. Saturday, January 19, 2002

Well I think i ran enough for now, running away from reality is not a very fun thing to do. Especially when there are so many dilemas, and guessing to be made. Time to "Face Off"!

Today Weisheng sprain his ankle again. Pray that his leg will recover, and that he will not miss any competitons comin up. Poor thing, we was just thinking of training everyday before the competitions, and now this. It was swelling real big, hope his mother does not find out, or...

Next match is against FuHua, but its so long away, 1/2/2002. Other teams have already played their 3rd match and we havnt even got to the second. SiGh. Super busy nowadays, like today, training till bout 11am, then tuition at 1pm. Super Shagged. Still...last year to press on.

*I've learnt, that you only can be someone worth loving, the rest is up to them.*

Clear minded?
10:04 p.m. Friday, January 18, 2002

I need to pray, I guess, for a clear mind, clear vision of the future, and to provide me with clear goals for my life. I know this sounds all so lame, but when I try to forget, some stuff, I tend to play basketball better. The lord put all those thoughts, all those memories aside, when i was on the court that day vs Bukit Panjang. Probably in my studies too, this is the main factor clogging up my mind now. Like you can say,"When you are in love, and your heart is on fire, smoke gets in your eyes." Well, relationships have both Pros and Cons I guess.

Today went to PLCC to play ball with bingxin and weisheng, we actually sort of controlled the court(since Yan Qing and his bunch of bball freaks were not playing) Think I said one joke too many about weisheng. Although I really meant to joke only, maybe he took it to heart, should try not to tease weisheng anymore. He played very well today with alot of good moves. And he really is improving too. Travins influence perhaps. Im in some kinda solo mode now also, i dunno, hope i dun be like richmond during C div. he reminded he of that fact during the match that day, and i was thinking, did i really shoot like how he did during C div? And...i should start to command the team too. and always remember...

The Ball Is Round.

The Prayer of Jabeez
07:02 p.m. Thursday, January 17, 2002

Today is a great day i suppose. Its our first match in the Inter-school basketball tournaments, Vs Bukit Panjang Gov. High. Sort of expected to win before the match began. But as my old coach would say, "the ball is round, anything can happen." And its rather true, because if it wasnt, we would be 2nd in nationals already when we were C div.
Normally I play point gaurd (which is the guy who normally does not score points) But today sort of turned out differently. Before the match, my teacher in charge, also a good friend, told me to pray the prayer of Jabeez before the match, which I did.(the prayer is something about enlarging ones territories, without causing pain.)
The match started at around 3pm, and i wasnt expecting much points from the game. I hit the 1st shot, den the second. It was only the first quarter when I hit 3 3-points in a row.(Honestly, i'm not trying to boast, this never happened in any of the competitions.) Before the first quarter ended, we were leading them 16-0. After we were leading around 30-6 in the second quarter, our coach started taking out all the sec 4s(I am a sec 4 if u hadnt noticed), and putting in the sec 3s. We didn't play much for the rest of the game. Damn. Although we could have made a "nice" score line, we settled for the win(48-28). Really want to thank god for my performance today, although most might think that my hard work training has paid off, but I sincerely think, and know, that the Lord was with me during the match.
Amen.

The Time has come... ...
10:20 p.m. Wednesday, January 16, 2002

Dun get too excited about the design. Its not very original, maybe some parts are though. Maybe this blog will act like an Open Diary or something. I'll just write, dun really bother if anyone reads it. LoL! Well basketball competitions start tomorrow. 3pm. Vs Bukit Panjang Sec. Of course we are expecting to win this match. Coz we won them quite a few times in the past years. The problem is...we have not really been training, and our team has sort of fallen apart. Despite this, there is still a glimer of hope that we can get into the nationals top 8. (which is more or less a reasonable goal) Worst thing...NO JERSEY YET! and WHY?? Oh well some dog must have stolen it. If we dun get it by tomorrow...*BiSh*

Oh Yeah!
09:29 p.m. Tuesday, January 15, 2002

Hm... Lets See if this blog works. LoL! IT DOES! Saw many have blogs online. So i thought..Why Not? This design sux...i noe...dun need critism on that. Muz understand, i have no photoshop, no designing software wad so ever. Wait till i get my hands on one. haha. Waste my time turning my house upside down trying to find some stupid design softwares. Maybe go buy during the week ends. Sian. Dun feel like doing homework anymore. Although tomorrow got 2 tests, not in the mood to study. Haha. So i guess its slack for today.